I write here, erase it, write and erase. It feels like everything I’m writing is just crap. I don’t know what to say. My day has been hard, but ok. Been to some treatment appointments where all I did was cry, talk about the past days, and drink a nutrition drink so I will get some nutrition (it’s really really hard to eat right now so the nutritionist “forced” me to drink one while I was with her so they know I’ve had something to “eat” today)…
It’s been some tough and really crappy days. I also feel so weak but it’s probably because I’m not sleeping good at all and haven’t sleep good for several weeks. I’m not eating like all the professionals think I should, and I’m really sad. It feels like all I do is cry, which is ok I guess since I’m facing what I really feel inside of me, but it’s making me even more tired and weak. I don’t really know what to write here right now, I’m so sad…I guess I just have to let my emotions come and be as they are, face them, and take care of them.
But, as my main care person in the hospital said when I was being signed out and about to leave;
There’s only one way to go and that is forward!
I’m sorry things are so difficult right now! Sending you love and hugs from across the ocean!
Thank you so much, Carissa! It means so much to me <3 Love.
Hoppas du mår bättre snart, men ja, det är bra att du “are facing what you feel inside yourself.” Jag och solen/värmen väntar här borta i alla fall!
Tack söta du!!! Längtar jättemycket till att se dig igen och till värmen! Här har snön öst ner och det känns som om våren aldrig kommer. Så jag tycker att riktigt varmt väder passar väldigt bra nu! Inte lång tid kvar nu, WOO HOO!!!! Kramar