I write here, erase it, write and erase. It feels like everything I’m writing is just crap. I don’t know what to say. My day has been hard, but ok. Been to some treatment appointments where all I did was cry, talk about the past days, and drink a nutrition drink so I will get some nutrition (it’s really really hard to eat right now so the nutritionist “forced” me to drink one while I was with her so they know I’ve had something to “eat” today)…
It’s been some tough and really crappy days. I also feel so weak but it’s probably because I’m not sleeping good at all and haven’t sleep good for several weeks. I’m not eating like all the professionals think I should, and I’m really sad. It feels like all I do is cry, which is ok I guess since I’m facing what I really feel inside of me, but it’s making me even more tired and weak. I don’t really know what to write here right now, I’m so sad…I guess I just have to let my emotions come and be as they are, face them, and take care of them.
But, as my main care person in the hospital said when I was being signed out and about to leave;
There’s only one way to go and that is forward!