The Weekend

October 3, 2015


It’s Saturday morning. Something I used to enjoy, and still do sometimes, but this weekend is hard. Really tough to be honest. I feel like I’m being challenged way too much and too soon, than I’m ready for. I’m in fact home alone (well, Zola is here of course, which is actually pretty awesome, she’s such a good cat) this weekend since Liz is starting her new class, which you can read more about here on her blog. However, there’s no way I wanted her to skip this, and I’m so unbelievably happy and excited for my wife following her dream!

I tried to make some plans with some people this weekend. I truly tried, but haven’t heard from them anything more (yet), since last time I contacted them, so I take it as a sign that they have other plans – probably more fun than hanging out with me anyway, to be honest. If you happen to read this, don’t feel bad about it. Ok. I have also cancelled and rescheduled a few things this weekend, because I have no energy (or the eating disorder told me to…or it could perhaps be both reasons). One would think you get more energy with the food I’m eating at treatment, which I get, but the body is also working hard taking care of it, and therefore I get tired.

I just feel like a piece of shit right now to be honest and I don’t ever wish anyone to ever deal with an eating disorder because it’s hell and not a life to live at all. Yet, here I’m stuck again, in this monster. But I have a fantastic main contact nurse (thank goodness for her!!), a great day treatment group, and I’m lucky to be able to get this help right now in life. Now it’s “just” to take this fight every d*mn meal, every day, every week, every month…

That’s all for now. I don’t really have anything fun to add to this rather depressed post. Oh, I do have one thing! I’m gonna drink coffee with my wonderful cousin later on today, that’s making me smile, and warming my heart. Love and credit to her for wanting to be with me ♥.


  • Reply ISA October 3, 2015 at 2:59 PM

    SVAR: Men du!! vad fin du är, så himla glad blir jag <3

  • Reply nicole October 4, 2015 at 6:52 AM

    This post breaks my heart. I always have and always will love spending time with you. No matter how crappy you feel. Remember two and a half years ago when you were pretty bad the day before going into hospital. We watched September Boys (worst movie ever) and Liz was trying yo see the bright side by commenting on the lovely scenery…. that was soooo obviously photo-shopped. We were in stitches.
    So even then you managed to laugh from the bottom of your heart completely free. Even if it was only for 10 seconds or so. Lina is always in there – and she is soooo worth spending time with. Lots of love x

    • Reply Lier October 4, 2015 at 10:21 AM

      You are so sweet, Nicole! Your comment made me tear up because I’m so lucky to have you in my life and you’ve been (and are) an amazing support to both of us – and that means SO MUCH!! Thank you for your sweet made me miss you a lot and I hope we’ll get to come to Ireland rather soon than later to hang out with you all. Love you <3

  • Reply Paige October 5, 2015 at 6:32 AM

    Lina, this made me tear up. I wish so badly that I could be there for you. I hate so badly being so far away from you in such a time of need. I’m really proud of you for getting through yesterday and being real & honest with your feelings. You’re truly one of the most genuine people I’ve ever met and that’s such an amazing quality that not many truly have. Stay strong and know that as much as I can be I’m here. So much love to you and to Liz. Xx

    • Reply Lier October 5, 2015 at 5:13 PM

      Thank you so much for your kind words and for your supporting words! Love ya’! <3

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