i have so many thoughts when it comes to writing and sharing things on the internet and i’m gonna do something i think it’s really scary right now. i’m gonna share some of my thoughts and possible future ideas for my blog, right here!
some people are really honest in how they are feeling and then share it all over the internet – for example twitter, facebook, blogs and other social media channels. i envy them for doing that and at the same time get really tired of always reading about it. it truly is both ways. i haven’t shared a lot of my private life and feelings on the internet at all the past years, and kept it to myself or shared it with the absolute closest one, my love, instead. i think it’s scary sharing my deeper thoughts with other people (which i’m actually sort of doing right now, gaaaah!!!).
so i’ve been thinking of why i’m scared sharing things here on my blog/other social medias…and have come up with some possible reasons:
– who cares about me and my feelings?
– will my readers start disliking me now?
– what will the readers think about me?
– what are the readers gonna do with the information?
– who exactly is reading it?
– how will it be next time we’re seeing each other (if we do)?
it’s a bit challenging writing on a blog. what to write? what pictures to post, show, and share with you all? my wish is for people to find it fun, good, and interesting reading my blog. i guess the reason of all the doubt about sharing things, is that i have no control of the ones who are reading this blog. i know i can fix a password for the blog and people can request the password and then i’ll have “the control” i perhaps need or want BUT i’m working hard on losing some control in my life right now – to let a lot of that go..gosh, this is so so SO HARD.
at the same time i feel kind of stuck and in one way not completely honest here on the blog, so do i really need a password in order to be able to share more of my life? will people really request a password or will they just skip checking in here then? i wish my blog could grow to be more of a give-and-take-blog. i write something, people leave comments, and we start having a dialouge with each other. but perhaps it’s too much to ask for? on the other hand, you readers might leave more comments if i start sharing more here too? am i right?
what are your thoughts about it all?
should i start writing more honest about things, and then share it with you all here in order to be able to write more and be more honest? should i create a password you can request for? will readers request it then or is it too much of work then? or should i continue like the way it is right now?
(i just have to tell you that even though i might start being more honest and share things on my blog, i still have a private life and things i’m still not gonna share since things are pretty hard right now but i’ll share more than i do today.)