Again. It’s been quiet here for a while. Why? I don’t know. Well perhaps I do..I’ve sold my computer, and even though I can borrow Liz’s (which I am now), I don’t do it very often. I’ve also been busy celebrating different things, grilling out a few times with friends and family, been to Gothenburg, done some shopping, checked out exhibitions in town, met up with people, said good bye to people (or more like; see you later!). I have also prepared for the move by filling in plenty of papers and forms, and scheduled appointments for various things, etc. There are so many people I love and care about. Will miss them so much, but the bittersweet part is to also be able to be closer to our American family and friends. I can never feel a hundred percent good inside of me when it comes to being physically close to some people, and not being close to others. I guess that’s the price you have to pay when you are married to someone from another part of the world. But oh, it gives us so many opportunities as well.
Tomorrow we are heading to one of my favorite places in Sweden, the archipelago. Going to be so much fun and such a good time to be around people I love, before the moving day. It’s less than two weeks now, and once we are back in town, after the week out in the archipelago, it’s only four days left in Sweden!!! CRAZY. We have already started to order furniture, and set up electricity and TV/Internet plans. We are staying at my parents’ house right now, which is really nice, but I’m literally living with my clothes in a box with everything squeezed in every place, here and there (not so optimal for me, an almost “OCD-diagnosed” person…). But I’m hanging there. Since I’m really taking the time to update here now, why not go on some more…hehe.
Today, I had a lunch date with an amazing woman who means so much to me. She was one of the nurses I had last year when I was in the hospital for some months. We have run into each other before (or mostly Liz has), e-mailed some; and in the beginning of this week we suddenly ran in to each other and decided on a lunch date so I could give her some updates about everything in my life pretty much. It has been such a change in e v e r y t h i n g in the past year so it was really great meeting up with her, and chatting for a couple of hours while eating lunch (Yeah! It was totally fine and I wasn’t anxious-at all -YAY!!!). But I also feel so safe with her. Last year, in the hospital, this nurse and I talked about different dreams, and tried to focus on the positive parts of my life, and about continuing to fight since it will be so worth it. I’m there today. Today, I’m fulfilling my dream – to move to the States, study, and start a new career! I’m so blessed and happy! Today we also talked about that the most important part of getting better, is to find your own motivation and your own will to actually leave the sickness behind and to start to live a healthier and happier life. You have to decide and the professionals (or your spouse/family/friends/whoever you have close to you) will help you to hold your hand along the way, but you are the one who needs to do the real hard job in order to change and get better! You have to make a decision and fight for it for 110%. I’ve been so lucky with all the support I’ve received and felt from my love and all the professionals I have had. I want to thank them all, in a way words aren’t enough. They held my hand, motivated me, have been the strength when I have felt weak, and so much more. ♥
I know that some of you, who are reading this right now, are the ones who were there when it was my darkest times in my life (but also when it became lighter). I’m so thankful that you care about me and Liz so much, and want you to stay in contact a bit and follow us on our adventure. It means a lot. Feel free to leave a comment or e-mail me. All I can say is that I will always keep you in my heart, be thankful, and remember you deeply in my soul for taking such a good care of me. You know where we live so if you ever come over the Atlantic Ocean, give a call or send an e-mail, and we’ll show you our favorite parts of the States.
Gonna end this post now, and will probably not be that active the coming week since I’m where Internet hardly exists. But I don’t want to focus too much on that then anyway. Check liersees on Instagram for hopefully more frequent updates in a picture form. Take care, and see ya’ in the end of next week!
Atlantic Beach, North Carolina, USA summer of 2010
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