Friday – Saturday – Sunday

October 5, 2015


Thought of sharing a little summary of the weekend, since I wasn’t really looking forward to it when Friday came along and I was gonna be by myself. I even told my nurse that all I wanted was to lay down in bed and wake up on Monday again. Yes, that’s how I felt about it all. BUT I have to say that the weekend turned out to be way better than I expected and I’m gonna give myself credit for that! Lina vs. eating disorder, 1-0. Bam.

I actually cancelled my little plan for Friday night, which was to hang out with my cousin. I was so tired after my first week of treatment so I decided to just be by myself at home. It wasn’t that great at all, though, with a lot of anxiety and crap. But I made it through, watched the Swedish Idol, and went to bed in decent time. Zola was really sweet and laid on me when I was falling a sleep (she is in a phase where she’s not hanging out in bed so it was pretty huge that she did that)! She probably felt how I was feeling.

I woke up and decided to clean the whole apartment, which took a while. Afterwards, I read blogs, and sat by the computer for a while. Since I had canceled my plans on Friday, my cousin and I decided to see each other on Saturday instead, so she came by and had coffee with me in the afternoon and stayed for some hours. It was really cozy to just be together and chat. She left around 6.30pm, and at 7.30pm, my sister-in-law came by, and later on our friend as well, and the three of us headed to a party. YES! I’d been invited to this party for some weeks now, and was freaking out about it a lot to be honest. However, I discussed and planned it with my nurse on Friday morning, just to make it as safe as possible for me to go if I decided to. With some encouragement from my sister-in-law, I decided to go and I’m SO GLAD I did. They were all so so so sweet, I had a great time, and didn’t come home until pretty late!

Slept pretty long due to Saturday night’s adventure, got up, and made plans with my cousin again. It’s so important to me right now to have some plans every now and then, otherwise I’ll just stay home and get even more anti-social and anxious about being out. So around 1pm, we met up with our bikes, and headed out to a store where she was gonna buy shoes, and then we headed over to IKEA and I did some minor shopping. I just stayed home the rest of the day due to exhaustion, with the exception to go and meet up Liz at the train station when she came back to town! So glad she’s home again and everything is back to normal.

I have to say that I think I did pretty good on the social parts during the weekend. There are some other things that didn’t really work out that great, but that’s another story, and something I have to deal with this week.


  • Reply Liz October 5, 2015 at 8:59 AM

    My goodness… you are so strong. And I am so very proud of you for how you have started this part of your journey to freedom. As I have said before, you truly are my hero. I love you so very much! (And it feels AMAZING to be home with you again!). xoxo

    • Reply Lier October 5, 2015 at 5:11 PM

      I love you so much and thank you <3 Feels AMAZING to me too, that you're home again!!! LOVE YOU!

  • Reply Lanie October 5, 2015 at 2:34 PM

    I’m glad you had a decent weekend on your own, girl. I was and am thinking of you! ❤️

    • Reply Lier October 5, 2015 at 5:10 PM

      Thank you <3 Miss you...but NEXT SUMMER, we'll come to Atlanta some, deal?! 🙂

  • Reply Gesine October 6, 2015 at 6:05 PM

    You go girl! Good work! Since this was your first weekend alone, since quite a longe time and under the given curcumstances you did so well! Sending you my best thoughts. <3

    • Reply Lier October 6, 2015 at 7:47 PM

      Thank you!! <3

  • Reply Nicole October 7, 2015 at 1:19 PM

    well done my dear. That’s a huge achievement!!!

    • Reply Lier October 7, 2015 at 4:35 PM

      Thanks! I was pretty damn proud of my social skills too! Now there’s “just” the other stuff that needs to work as well!

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