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something beautiful

November 9, 2012

l love this movie. Love this opening scene. Love this music. I love it all.

Forrest Gump Suite by Alan Silvestri

during the late fall nights

October 30, 2012


Cold and dark fall nights mean music, and a lot of candles lit all around me. This is what’s being played right now from one of my playlists on Spotify. Click on the pics to go directly to the song.

Tomas Andersson Wij / Romantiken
Cookies N Beans / Go Tell the World
Amos Lee / Simple Things
Gotye / Hearts A Mess

stay on the positive side

October 18, 2012

I know, I keep writing about it over and over again. But I believe that’s the way to do it – repeat something for yourself (and on the blog), and it will become real or true. Yesterday was a pretty crappy day, and I just wanted to stay in bed the whole day. Of course, I didn’t since I had to do some things and face some hard stuff. Anyway, Liz, a friend of ours, and I had planned on going to a cafe and listen to some live music in the evening. I was telling Liz in the afternoon that I would not tag along since I was feeling crappy and she told me to just go, and it might help me feel better. I did. And you know what, it did make me feel better. I gotta listen to my wife some more, I believe. I know it’s hard to focus on other things that are positive in the middle of all the crappy-ness, but if you sometimes force yourself to face another situation or another thought, it might turn out better than you would never have imagined. Try to flip over to the positive side, and stay there. It’s way more fun!


October 14, 2012

 A beautiful day several years ago, and me walking around in the peaceful woods of North Carolina.

Jag kan dina trappor
alla dörrar alla lås
Dina lådor utan handtag
varje språng
Och när du vaknar om en stund
ska du höra lövsångaren sjunga
I stora trädet utanför
kom ut hit och lev innan du dör

Du har vädjat du har mörkat
du har tuktat din rabatt
Du har tömt dina fickor
för att slippa spö
Du har växlat ner dig själv i rubel
för att få sitta med vid bordet
Men inte fan hjälpte det
du trampa bara ännu djupare

Du har vaknat upp vid stup 
och du har klängt längst ut på kammen
Alltid nånting du gjort fel 
och nåt hemskt du sagt
Men ingen bryr sig som du gör
ingen människa väger alla orden
Och om nån ändå skulle göra det
låt då den stackaren göra det

Det du räds drar du till dig
och det du jagar glider undan
Det du vill äga 
kommer en dag att äga dig
Och du kan kämpa ett helt liv
utan att vinna en enda seger
Du vet de blodigaste krigen
är alltid inbördeskrigen

Jag har hört dina rop
och lagt svaren i ditt hjärta
Sluta sök mig bortom molnen
när jag är här
Jag hör kranen inom dig
droppa oro och förtvivlan
Men också sången utanför
kom ut hit och lev innan du dör
kom ut hit och lev innan du dör 
kom ut hit och lev 

I love this song, “Oroshjärta”, written by the Swedish singer Tomas Andersson Wij. If you would like to listen to it on Spotify, check out this link. “Live life before you die” – my goal right now. I don’t wanna deal with all the thoughts and habits I’ve been dealing with for a long time. Too long of a time. I just wanna be free, and enjoy life. I’ve realized I’m more stuck than I first thought, and that this journey will take a longer time than I ever could have imagined. But I’m gonna let this process take its time, and work hard toward life – give everything that’s hard a turn. Luckily, I have my amazing wife who supports me to the fullest, and is always there for me. I’m also surrounded by great professionals. What would I have done without them? I believe I’m gonna listen to the song now, try to refocus, and think of my goal in life. I’ve already been to the bottom, where I almost died. Now it’s time to live life before I die. Oroshjärta.

new music, vintage style.

October 5, 2012

we just couldn’t resist walking into that little corner music shop on the main street. and we just couldn’t resist checking out some of the newly arrived LP’s. we just love it; the music, and our upcoming music wall in our home. vaxkupan is definitely worth a visit if you happen to be in town or come to norrköping.

wine, live music and soul-filling moments

August 19, 2012

as i mentioned some days ago (link) and (link), my love took pictures of the band blackbyrd we both like a lot, while they were playing at a restaurant in town. cred to my love’s pictures. it was a really cozy night with good wine, relaxing music, and fun chat afterwards. we should do this more often – so inspiring and good for our souls.

tears of happiness.

August 18, 2012

you know what?! i got the amazing guitar today! i’m a spoiled girl, but i’m so so so truly happy about this. i started crying out of happiness earlier today, while standing in the music store together with my parents. music means so much to me and i really need a positive and fun project for this fall when things are tough, hard, and crappy having a new amazing guitar and some upcoming gigs will help it all. thank you so much, mom and dad ♥.

a guitar dream

August 17, 2012

i’ve been so inspired lately about learning and playing more guitar. i talked with the guitarist and lead singer in the band my love took pictures of last week (oh, gotta show you some of pics she took – my love is goood!) and he planted some thoughts in my head. so i just had to go to the music store the other day, and i fell in love. it seriously was a “click” moment. love at first sight – both in the way the guitar looks but also in sound and feeling. gaaah. so from now on i have a project: “buy the guitar-project”.

yamaha apx500ii (pic from 4sound)

moments of feeling it.

April 14, 2012

it is something about reading the paper on a morning when you’re off from work and having a day in front of you with just a few plans. oh, and then the music that’s streaming out in the sunny kitchen while i’m drinking a yummy cup of coffee. i can feel life. these moments are so important to hold on to. the moments where you feel something, something positive. there are too many moments when people are focusing all on negative feelings.

i’ve been listening a lot to whitney houston lately and specially the song; ” I Didn’t Know My Own Strength” [link]. so beautiful and such a talented singer.. the song is about the strength you have that you might not know about. how the strength can take away the pain in life during the darkest hours. i love it but it feels sad listening to whitney singing it since the pain took over her life and she didn’t make it completely. i discussed it with my amazing and wise wife. when whitney sang this song in 2009, she was strong and she felt the strength and believed in it. i can tell in the way she sings it. sadly it didn’t go through completely but she at least felt it and that’s where it all needs to start in your life as well.

in my kitchen right now.

hope you’ll have a great saturday exactly the way you want it and in the midst of perhaps some pain, you can feel something positive. i also believe that you’re strong even though you might not feel like it.


surrounded by music.

April 4, 2012

I’m using this really smart app called “SoundHound” where you can find out which song is playing if you hear some good music in a store, at a pub, or wherever. You can also get the song and can check out the lyrics. It’s pretty much awesome. I usually “scan” the music, take a picture of it so I can keep it on my phone and there it usually stays. Hmpf. Until today where I created a playlist on Spotify for all the different songs I’ve heard out and about. It’s a mix of everything. Some more crazy than others. More songs will be added in the future based from this app and when I hear something interesting. The playlist is called “. found out and about” and you can get it here.

some of the albums

local heroes.

March 18, 2012

it was such a good saturday. filled with music. that’s the best. i attended “local heroes” here in town, which is sort of an open mic night at a café. i heard some amazing music; and i was actually singing some too – oh how i’ve missed it. anyway. “blackbyrds” shared their relaxing music (we bought their EP and my big time favorite is “scribblings”), and “the original trio” ended the evening with some crazy, unique musical entertainment. they are such pros. inspiring. and the best of all… i’ve promised myself to do more music in all kind of ways. that’s when i feel the best. to stand on a stage and sing – to spread words and music filled with emotions to others is one of the best things in the whole world, and i wanna do more of it so badly.

getting ready..

me singing some

blackbyrd – a really good band and this is their EP.

the original trio

saturday early afternoon

January 8, 2012

some pictures from yesterday early afternoon and the name-giving-ceremony. since my love took plenty of pictures and she should get all the credit, i’m not posting that many here. (check out some more pics on her blog, here).

a new week

April 26, 2010

so summary of yesterday: last min call to a friend who jumped on a train and spent the day in norrköping with me. cool. salem al fakir live. he’s talented and good. espresso house for some chai latte. shopping and then pride-festival stuff. although only a picture-slide show “in hate we trust” by elisabeth ohlson wallin (the same woman who created ecce homo 1998). touching and made me think and analyze like crazy. me like. then. talked with my love for the rest of the evening/night. yeah.

today: i’m just home writing which feels really crappy since it’s pretty warm out. meh. but been to a park and met some dogs i might babysit every now and then the coming weeks. they were so freaking cute. gaaah. love animals.

 gotta go back to the school stuff now, but first some music!

christmas music

December 23, 2009

since it’s christmas time and we’re all listening to plenty of christmas music, i have a few tips for cozy christmas evenings/nights (click on the album picture and it will open in spotify).



by the way…my flu shot did cause some serious issues. i couldn’t move my arm for 2.5 days! it’s ok now, finally..

a swede or an american?

September 25, 2009

i sort of see me as both nowadays. like half-half (but skip the milk/cream part). my love is an american and she is my soul, my everything. i have an american and a swedish family and i am proud of both. so proud. one thing is really funny though..i always feel really proud of sweden when i’m in the states. i mean, i’m never as much swede as i am when i’m here in the states. isn’t that funny? like now. the sounds (link) are gonna play here in asheville this weekend. makes me wanna go, and why? well..they are a pretty famous band BUT they are also from sweden! oh, yes! it’s only 15 bucks too = cheap! and i have never been to the orange peel where they are gonna play.

the only crappy thing is the day. a   s u n d a y. (and my love has to work the day after…meh.)

don’t know if we’re gonna go, but it surely made me think about my american/swedish life. interesting, big time.

pics here (the sounds) & here (the orange peel)

playing the harmonica by dave oliver

June 8, 2009

Bought a book with an including harmonica some months ago in the States and I’m today trying really hard to be able to play one hole/tune at a time. It. Is. Hard. Very. Hard. Kind of frustrating too. But I wanna be good at it. Be able to improvise and play whenever to whichever song. Gaaah. Would be amazing. So I am today trying. Which is funny since it’s one of the days where everything is wrong. I am wrong/boring/sad and the day is like a “life-sort-of-sucks-day”. Yeah. I’m not fun to deal with at all and I’m also spreading my mood to the closest ones to me. 5 points. So you all dear ones who’re reading this and have been dealing with me today. I’m sorry. Gonna wake up on the better side tomorrow. My goal is to focus on good things in life and not get stuck in my head with old disorder CRAP. 10 points to me for positive thinking. Gotta go back and read this in about 5 min (when I have thrown my harmonica across the room for the seventh time – kidding…it’s not that bad, yet). Seen some lessons on youtube…might check that out later on. Unless I’m deciding to give up for today and play The Sims 3instead. Tempting.

A dream to be able to play like that. Love the song too. She’s so talented…

cover me

May 6, 2009

did this a few months ago, i think. kind of funny.

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments after the song name.

What do your friends think of you?

Alltid där (Always there)

If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
I’ll Follow You Tonight

How would you describe yourself?

What do you like in a girl/guy?
Love For a Child

How do you feel today?
Bortom det Blå

What is your life’s purpose?

What is your motto?
I Have Nothing

What do you think about very often?
Light a Candle

What do you think of your best friend?
Don’t Make Me Wait Too Long

What is your life story?
While My Guitar gently Weeps

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Kiss the Girl

What’s your theme song?
O, Helga Natt

What will they play at your funeral?

What is your hobby/interest?
When It Comes To You

What is your biggest fear?
Journey to the Cemetary

What is your biggest secret?
Pour out your spirit

What do you think of your friends?
Feel it coming on

What will you post this as?
Cover me

April 28, 2009

one of my favorites

Love the intro..

Today is my dad’s b-day and he got the best gift ever – his eye is better so he can walk straight up now.
He’s happy and I’m am so relieved and happy too.

HAPPY B-DAY DAD, I love you!


April 27, 2009

I haven’t listend to music for about 5 days. It was quite (from music) in the car on our way to the airport last Thursday. We remebered last time we had to seperate for weeks and we listend to music which made us even more last Thursday we didn’t feel like to listen to anything and I haven’t listend since the days before Thursdayuntil right now.

Lenka is the only artist I can listen to and that’s pretty weird…’cause I have so many memories from the States and the time with my love. We saw her live in Atlanta and almost every single time we drove somewhere Lenka was playin’. Love it.

pic from here

A mix of different feelings right now. I’m sad because I’m not with the person I love. I have awesome memories from different situations and times in the States with this music. Plenty of road trips for example or just hanin’ out in the apartmen. We are singing along with almost every song or at least our favorites. I don’t remember some parts but my knows it deeply by heart. I know exactly when the drums are starting or when some specific words are changing. I’m picturing a deep blue dark sky with plenty of stars…I have some moves I just have to do every single time I’m listening to one specific song..I’m crying bacause I’m so thankful for all the love I recieve every day and for how blessed I am.

Have been in contact with several people today and made fun plans, me like. Need it.Badly.

woo hoo!

February 27, 2009

My love will come and pick me up in about one hour.
Then road trip to Atlanta, GA
Concert tonight.
Stay one night in Atlanta
Visit IKEA

good morning

February 26, 2009

woke up early.
took a shower.
got dressed and here I am reday to face the day..

..and it’s only about 9:10 AM

have finished all the deadlines in school for this week. awesome.

gonna go to a church today and play the PIANO. can’t wait. i am so excited about it. miss it so much. then grey’s anatomy and private practice at m & j’s. yay.

i want to play in a band…or sing in a band. would be awesome. by the way. i’m gonna fix my hair. back to blond again..if it will work out. i’m so dark now..don’t know when yet.