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December 2015


December 31, 2015


What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?
Started working professionally as a Graphic Designer. Moved to Uppsala, Sweden, together with Liz, and we were toast madams at my brother’s wedding! Brewed our own beer, walked in the Pride Parade in Stockholm. I also met and spoke with my music talent inspiration, Helen Sjöholm!

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I said I would make some for 2015 but keep them to myself, but decided not to do any. I’ve decided I don’t like resolutions. I don’t wanna get disappointed in myself for not reaching them. However, I will think through some wishes of changes in my life that I will work on during 2016.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, quite a few friends ♥.


Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank goodness.

What countries did you visit?
I moved from the States to Sweden, but haven’t been in any other countries this year. My wife is applying for Swedish Citizenship, and had her passport sent in to the Immigration Office. We have it back now, even if the process is not done due to the situation in the world right now, with a lot of refugees. So that’s the reason we didn’t travel abroad any. Also, because of my sickness and the lack of money due to saving for an apartment here in Uppsala.

What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
Better health, an apartment that we own here in Uppsala (or at least being way closer to buying one). I would like to travel some more too.


What days from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Started the year with a trip to Washington DC with Liz and my parents who were in the States during the holidays. I showed them where I used to live back in 2003 and other places there. When we moved back to Sweden, and when we got the apartment we’re living in right now. It’s SO HARD to find a place here in this town! My brother’s wedding day! And when I was in Stockholm at the I Love Musical concert! It was MAGIC! Oh, also when Liz’s brother came to Sweden, the Pride Parade in Stockholm, and the summer days we spent exploring little gems at Söder in Stockholm.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
To start treatment and work towards getting more healthy.

Axis Walnut Longboard from Arbor Collective

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
Our couch and my longboard!

What was your biggest failure?
That the sickness took over my life again. Passing out in Stockholm. Not. Fun.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes, Anorexia nervosa.

Liz and I

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine and Liz’s.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not as much to make me depressed..but I’m not gonna mention it here. Too private. 

Where did most of your money go?
Shipping over by air, our stuff from the States. Flight tickets to Sweden and then just regular life. Probably our couch too.

Atlantic Beach

What are you really, really, really excited about?
To go to the States next summer!

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Been in contact with friends more. Sadly, I haven’t had energy to pretty much do anything. More video blogs and blog posts.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying and feeling anxious about stuff. Feeling stressed out about not working.

Marshall Headphone Love.

What song will always remind you of 2015?
» Laleh’s En Stund På Jorden & Vårens Första Dag
» Ola Salo’s version of Greetings From Space
Alessia Cara’s Here
Motopony’s 1971
Anna Ternheim’s Little Lies
Håkan Hellström’s Fri Till Slut & Du Är Snart Där
» Emily Jane White’s Hole In the Middle
Avicii’s version of Feeling Good


How did you be spend Christmas?
Celebrated it in Sweden, which I haven’t done for three years in a row! Went to my hometown where my parents live. Started Christmas Eve morning with breakfast, Christmas music, a fire in the fireplace, hung out at home and watched the annual Christmas Calendar Show on TV (last episode since it was Christmas now). Loved that show. Then headed to my sister’s place where all the kids were as well. For once, we were all gathered! We will do the every other year from now on and my whole family has timed this now. YES!

What was your favorite month of 2015?
Have no idea to be honest. It’s been a pretty tough year. But perhaps July.



Did you fall in love in 2015?
Even more with Liz, my wife since six years ♥.

What was your favorite TV program?
Nyhetsmorgon probably. Start pretty much everyday by watching that.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t do the hating.


What was the best book you read?
Haven’t had the concentration span to read that many books, but I read one – Seriously…I’m kidding by Ellen DeGeneres. I am gonna start one that I’m really excited about though so I’ll probably blog about it later.

What was the best serie(s) you watched?
The Walking Dead, Fear The Walking Dead, House of Cards, The Fosters, Homeland, Jessica Jones, The Killing, and some more. It’s been a year with a lot of TV-series! But it has its reasons.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Laleh! I know, I’m late with some artists…but I get so stuck once I find something so I miss the new ones…

DW watch

What did you want and get?
A new watch!

What did you want and not get?
Some trips.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Hmmm. Can’t think of any as of right now.


What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 31! Liz woke me up in the morning with the birthday song, breakfast in bed, and presents! I worked and in the evening, Liz surprised me with dinner out at a tapas restaurant where she also had invited my brother, his wife, my cousin, her boyfriend, and my extra brother/close friend. It was so cozy!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To not get sick..

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?
Black pants, oversized sweaters/t-shirts, and sneakers.

Zola, the Cat.

What kept you sane?
Liz and the amazing girls at the treatment, along with the professionals there at the hospital. Also doing puzzles, petting Zola, coloring, and listening to podcasts.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Helen Sjöholm!

What political issue stirred you the most?
How Sweden and some Swedish people are facing the refugees coming to Sweden. SD (Swedish Democrats a.k.a racist party) who’s part of the Swedish Government. SCARY and ok (now I’m gonna hate some..), I hate it. IS. Donald Trump…


Who did you miss?
Friends and family…♥

Who was the best new person (people) you met?
My co-workers, other new friends here in Uppsala, the girls at treatment, the professionals there, and again; Helen Sjöholm.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015
Don’t waste your energy on some people who you’ll never get energy from (the same as last year..hehe) and to get healthy and free will take its time and that’s what I’m gonna let it take. Because, I’m gonna get healthy and free from this shit.

Helen Sjöholm

Earlier year summaries

Merry Christmas

December 24, 2015

Merry Christmas

Liz and I are at my parents’ place, celebrating the Swedish way on Christmas Eve and will celebrate the American way once we’re back in Uppsala. Hope you’re having a great time ♥

Almost a month

December 21, 2015


Crazy. It’s been a while since I last posted something here on the blog. Oh, well. My life has been pretty intense, but not, at the same time. To be honest, it’s been pretty tough lately, but I keep fighting, trying to follow what the professionals and Liz are telling me to do. However, there are some struggles that are really hard right now, and it’s not really helping that day treatment is closed for about two weeks!! I understand the professionals need some time off too when the holiday is kicking in, but this is also a really tough period when having an eating disorder…

Friday was the last day for some of the girls at treatment as well, so it was really sad to say goodbye to them, and also to say goodbye to the girls who I’ll not see on a daily basis for a few weeks, like the past months. You get so used to the everyday schedule at the hospital with amazing people around you, and then suddenly, you don’t have them around you. I miss my heroes. Because that’s what they are, the other girls (well the professionals too), but gaaaah, I feel so much for the other patients. Ok, enough with that talk..I’m getting really emotional now.

Liz and I had some cozy time here at home with my brother, his wife, my cousin, her boyfriend, and my extra big brother (my real brother’s best friend). We drank Glögg (mulled wine which is a major Swedish holiday drink), ate some snacks, chatted, and played a quiz that Liz and I had put together earlier in the day. So much fun! We filmed some during the day so lets check it out instead of me trying to describe it.

Here we go! (for better quality, check out the video directly on my channel on Vimeo → here)