I will always remember April 12th, 2013. It was the day I was admitted to the hospital for a second time because of my eating disorder, Anorexia Nervosa. The professionals wanted to prevent me getting even deeper into the Anorexia again, since my goal was to move to the States, and start studying in August the same year. Just a few months away. This was my chance to get professional help 24/7 again, and I took it.
I stayed at the hospital for about 1.5 months that time, and all together I’ve been to the hospital for almost 5 months the past two springs (spring 2012 and 2013). The first time, May, 2012, was the worst, but more about that in another post.
Every day was a fight, and in between meals/resting times, I entertained myself by solving hundreds of sudokos, did puzzles consisting of thousands of pieces, and watched TV-series… I had so many Anorexic thoughts though, and was stuck in a really sick way of living which forced me to cancel a trip to China, celebrate another birthday at the hospital, and miss the spring and early summer arrival, because I was too focused on sick things instead of seeing and being aware of the surroundings and life in general.
I would not been able to have gone through this whole process without some special people in my life – Liz, my amazing wife, supportive J & S at the clinic who totally believed in me and my dreams, M – an amazing nurse/massage therapist, and S – another amazing nurse! I’m so deeply thankful for all what you’ve done to me, in order to help myself recover ♥
Today, I’m thinking of how my life was only one year ago. It has been (and still is sometimes) a fight, but my life today is soooo different than just a year ago. I’m living in the States and studying New Media – a dream of mine, and the most important, I’m happy, and healthy.
I know several friends and people around me who still suffer pretty bad from an eating disorder, and I want you to all know; If I did it, you can do it! It’s a really hard road to take, but it’s so worth it. Don’t give up, keep fighting!
Sending you strength and happy thoughts ♥
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Wow! I can’t believe it’s been a year. Carissa and I are so proud of you for how far you’ve come and how much you’ve accomplished. Keep up the good work! I’m sure it’s a struggle, but there are SO many people out here who love and support you. Congratulations on one amazing year since that time!
Thank you so much for your kind words, David! Hope you and Carissa are doing good! Love.
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♥♡♥I’m so proud of you!!! Love you Sis!♡♥♡
Thanks <3
Lina, you look so good in your pictures now! I can’t quite imagine what it must be like to live with that demon trying to take over your thoughts, but I am proud of you for being able to move forward and take hold of your dreams. I am glad you have Liz in your life to encourage you to look at life in a positive perspective and to live your dream with you. Won’t your mom be proud when she sees how far you have progressed!
Thank you so much, Barb!!! Liz is the best 🙂
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