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December 31, 2016

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Starting from the bottom right!

9. Me at the beach in South Portland, Maine, USA.
I had this picture taken the other day and it made it to the top nine list, pretty cool! A day when Liz and I decided for a little photo session since the sunset was so nice.

Ocean love. An open sea feels like an open book, with endless possibilities, a connection to the world, and uniting love. The fresh air, the beautiful view, and the horizon touching both earth and sky. Love it.

 

8. Me with the New York City skyline.
This past summer when Liz and I spent a couple of days in NYC, we stayed at an awesome airbnb apartment in Williamsburg, and explored new areas in NY.

I freaking love NYC ❤️

 

7. Me sitting on the floor in our living room.
I decided to film my reaction of playing the classic Nintendo I just had gotten.

 

6. Phone with our podcast playing.
We took a picture of a phone on the desk, playing our latest podcast episode.

It’s podcast day + Episode 14 of the LIZ + LINA podcast is ready!! This week we’re highlighting some of our most memorable moments of the past year… tune in to hear about some of our experiences + what word we decide to use to describe 2016! // Find us on iTunes podcasts, Soundcloud and Acast!! // Link in profile!

 

5. Podcast and a heart made of tea lights.
We created a heart made out of tea lights in the honor of our friend who had passed away the day before we recorded the podcast. The episode was a tribute to him.

We’ve created a special LIZ+LINA podcast for Episode 10 this week – where we process some of the tough things in life and how life just isn’t fair. Tune in + pass it on // Find us on iTunes podcasts, Soundcloud and Acast!! // Link in profile!

 

4. Williamsburg bridge.
Again, a pic from this past summer when we walked around in Williamsburg and realized how beautiful the sky/sunset was, so we just had to capture it on camera as well.

From last night ?? 

 

3. Liz and I outside the City Hall in Norrköping.

On our 7th wedding anniversary, I posted a picture from when just just had gotten married, back in 2009.

We’ve been married 7 years today and we’re still going strong! Gaaah, I love her so much ❤ ((The picture above is taken on December 26th, 2009, right after we’d said yes ?))

 

2. Me drinking coffee
We were at the airport, heading to the States for 4 week vacation during summer. I needed coffee, and bought some ridiculous expensive AND crappy tasting coffee. However, I was happy about going to the States.

Just bought an expensive and disgusting coffee at the airport… ? But hey, I’m excited and happy anyway because we’re about to board our plane to NYC! ??✈️

 

1. Liz and I at Rockefeller Center
Again, we’re in NYC, but this time during the holiday season and we got to see all the Christmas lights, tree, skating rink, etc. It felt like I was in an American holiday movie. Checked one of the things off  of my bucket list: to experience NYC during Christmas time.

New York, together with my amazing wife ❤

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2016

December 31, 2016

2016

What did you do in 2016 that you’d never done before?
Bought an apartment in Uppsala!! So we’re homeowners now, woo hoo! We also filmed for a TV-show that’s gonna air in just a few months as I’m typing this (the end of December 2016)! Went in an ambulance to the emergency room. Not good, not good. Went to a Håkan Hellström concert along with more than 70,000 other people. That was amazing. Started a podcast together with Liz. Premiered with my longboard, but have to say that I didn’t really longboard that much do to fall weather and lack of company longboarding with me (yes, I’m that girl that wants to do it together with other people and not all by myself). Hung out in Williamsburg, NY. Love it!

Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did! Or I thought of some wishes that I was gonna work on in 2016, and I have. I usually don’t make any resolutions, but I will again, write down some wishes for myself that I’m gonna work on!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, several friends ♥.

2. Plants, coziness, and the beginning of our celebration season

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Did anyone close to you die?
Yes… ♥ ♥

What countries did you visit?
USA twice. A month in summer and two weeks over Christmas and New Years. Finland when we went on a little cruise to celebrate my sister’s birthday, and France.

What would you like to have in 2017 that you lacked in 2016?
Even better health, more mental strength, and more creativity. Energy!

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What days from 2016 will remain etched upon your memory?
The day we got the keys to our new home, when our friend passed away, along with my grandmother. Also when I got really sick and had to go in an ambulance to the emergency room. My grandma’s funeral. The days at the beach in North Carolina, USA. When we were filming the TV-show. The Paris trip!

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
When I made the decision to step up a level in my recovery. More about that in another post.

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
Our apartment, furniture, and fun technical things. Also the trips we did to the States and within the States along with the trip to France.

Plants and new stuff on the walls.

December moments

What was your biggest failure?
The sickness, to have to go in the ambulance to the emergency room.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes, Anorexia Nervosa along with anxiety…BUT I haven’t had any colds or anything during the whole year so that’s a major plus. Knock. Knock.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine and Liz’s. Along with a friend of mine who helped me getting to the hospital when I needed it. Also some other fighter-friends, facing sicknesses as well. My parents.

December moments

Paris We Love You

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Too private. 

Where did most of your money go?
Our home in Uppsala, Sweden, furniture, technical things, and flight tickets.

What are you really, really, really excited about?
To travel to some new places in the world, watch the TV-show we’re in, perhaps renovate our kitchen, to visit our dear friend in Ireland in February, and to go to our friends’ wedding in Germany in May!

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Photo studio.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Been in contact with friends more. Blog posts, podcasts, and perhaps even some vlogs. Creative stuff.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying and feeling anxious about stuff.

What song will always remind you of 2016?
» Adele’s All I Ask & When We Were Young
» AURORA’s version of Life on March
» 
Hulls Loney Dear
»  Scott Bradlee’s Postmodern Jukebox’s version of Creep

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South Portland

How did you be spend Christmas?
In South Portland, Maine, USA. Together with Liz’s family! Cozy and relaxed.

What was your favorite month of 2016?
July – spent some time in the archipelago and we also went the States.

Did you fall in love in 2016?
Even more with Liz, my wife since seven years ♥.

Highland Brewing Company Roof Top and Liz

Lina and Liz at WALK

What was your favorite TV program?
Historieätarna. However, I’m not really watching that much TV. Mostly TV-series on Netflix and HBO Nordic.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t do the hating.

What was the best book you read?
Haven’t read that many books. But I liked Arvet efter dig by Jojo Moyes and also Min bror tog drogerna by Frida Jonsson.

Wall art.

Plants and new stuff on the walls.

What was the best serie(s) you watched?
The Walking Dead, The Affair, Bron, Outlander, Sons of Anarchy, Graceland, Stranger Things, and Homeland.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Scott Bradlee’s Postmodern Jukebox. Saw them live in Stockholm and they inspired me on so many levels. Loved it.

What did you want and get?
Better health and my life back a little bit more!

French wine.

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What did you want and not get?
Some trips and to longboard as much as I wanted.

What was your favorite film of this year?
The Danish Girl.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 32! Ate dinner with Liz at Stationen in Uppsala and then met up a bunch of friends at Katalin for drinks. So much fun.

Bday

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What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To be more healthy and have more energy.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2016?
Black pants, cozy cropped sweaters/ long t-shirts, and sneakers.

What kept you sane?
Liz and the amazing friends I got to know more and more during the year, my therapist, and a new friend I got to know. And then to listen to music, create, take pictures, play video games, hang out with friends and family.

Paris Métropolitain

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Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Beyoncé – such an awesome way to release her new music.

What political issue stirred you the most?
Donald Trump along with Putin…and then the whole refugee situation in the world. Aleppo…gaaah, so depressing.

Who did you miss?
Friends and family…♥

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Stift

Who was the best new person (people) you met?
Denise and new co-workers!

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2016
Don’t waste your energy on some people who you’ll never get energy from (the same as last year and the year before that..hehe) and to get healthy and free will take its time. I am the only one who can change my life. I can get support from others, but the change will, at the end, depend on one person – me!

Earlier year summaries
2015
2014
2013
2011

2015

December 31, 2015

2015

What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?
Started working professionally as a Graphic Designer. Moved to Uppsala, Sweden, together with Liz, and we were toast madams at my brother’s wedding! Brewed our own beer, walked in the Pride Parade in Stockholm. I also met and spoke with my music talent inspiration, Helen Sjöholm!

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I said I would make some for 2015 but keep them to myself, but decided not to do any. I’ve decided I don’t like resolutions. I don’t wanna get disappointed in myself for not reaching them. However, I will think through some wishes of changes in my life that I will work on during 2016.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, quite a few friends ♥.

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Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank goodness.

What countries did you visit?
I moved from the States to Sweden, but haven’t been in any other countries this year. My wife is applying for Swedish Citizenship, and had her passport sent in to the Immigration Office. We have it back now, even if the process is not done due to the situation in the world right now, with a lot of refugees. So that’s the reason we didn’t travel abroad any. Also, because of my sickness and the lack of money due to saving for an apartment here in Uppsala.

What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
Better health, an apartment that we own here in Uppsala (or at least being way closer to buying one). I would like to travel some more too.

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What days from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Started the year with a trip to Washington DC with Liz and my parents who were in the States during the holidays. I showed them where I used to live back in 2003 and other places there. When we moved back to Sweden, and when we got the apartment we’re living in right now. It’s SO HARD to find a place here in this town! My brother’s wedding day! And when I was in Stockholm at the I Love Musical concert! It was MAGIC! Oh, also when Liz’s brother came to Sweden, the Pride Parade in Stockholm, and the summer days we spent exploring little gems at Söder in Stockholm.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
To start treatment and work towards getting more healthy.

Axis Walnut Longboard from Arbor Collective

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
Our couch and my longboard!

What was your biggest failure?
That the sickness took over my life again. Passing out in Stockholm. Not. Fun.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes, Anorexia nervosa.

Liz and I

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine and Liz’s.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not as much to make me depressed..but I’m not gonna mention it here. Too private. 

Where did most of your money go?
Shipping over by air, our stuff from the States. Flight tickets to Sweden and then just regular life. Probably our couch too.

Atlantic Beach

What are you really, really, really excited about?
To go to the States next summer!

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Been in contact with friends more. Sadly, I haven’t had energy to pretty much do anything. More video blogs and blog posts.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying and feeling anxious about stuff. Feeling stressed out about not working.

Marshall Headphone Love.

What song will always remind you of 2015?
» Laleh’s En Stund På Jorden & Vårens Första Dag
» Ola Salo’s version of Greetings From Space
»
Alessia Cara’s Here
» 
Motopony’s 1971
»
Anna Ternheim’s Little Lies
»
Håkan Hellström’s Fri Till Slut & Du Är Snart Där
» Emily Jane White’s Hole In the Middle
»
Avicii’s version of Feeling Good

Christmas

How did you be spend Christmas?
Celebrated it in Sweden, which I haven’t done for three years in a row! Went to my hometown where my parents live. Started Christmas Eve morning with breakfast, Christmas music, a fire in the fireplace, hung out at home and watched the annual Christmas Calendar Show on TV (last episode since it was Christmas now). Loved that show. Then headed to my sister’s place where all the kids were as well. For once, we were all gathered! We will do the every other year from now on and my whole family has timed this now. YES!

What was your favorite month of 2015?
Have no idea to be honest. It’s been a pretty tough year. But perhaps July.

Summer

Pride

Did you fall in love in 2015?
Even more with Liz, my wife since six years ♥.

What was your favorite TV program?
Nyhetsmorgon probably. Start pretty much everyday by watching that.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t do the hating.

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What was the best book you read?
Haven’t had the concentration span to read that many books, but I read one – Seriously…I’m kidding by Ellen DeGeneres. I am gonna start one that I’m really excited about though so I’ll probably blog about it later.

What was the best serie(s) you watched?
The Walking Dead, Fear The Walking Dead, House of Cards, The Fosters, Homeland, Jessica Jones, The Killing, and some more. It’s been a year with a lot of TV-series! But it has its reasons.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Laleh! I know, I’m late with some artists…but I get so stuck once I find something so I miss the new ones…

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What did you want and get?
A new watch!

What did you want and not get?
Some trips.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Hmmm. Can’t think of any as of right now.

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What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 31! Liz woke me up in the morning with the birthday song, breakfast in bed, and presents! I worked and in the evening, Liz surprised me with dinner out at a tapas restaurant where she also had invited my brother, his wife, my cousin, her boyfriend, and my extra brother/close friend. It was so cozy!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To not get sick..

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?
Black pants, oversized sweaters/t-shirts, and sneakers.

Zola, the Cat.

What kept you sane?
Liz and the amazing girls at the treatment, along with the professionals there at the hospital. Also doing puzzles, petting Zola, coloring, and listening to podcasts.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Helen Sjöholm!

What political issue stirred you the most?
How Sweden and some Swedish people are facing the refugees coming to Sweden. SD (Swedish Democrats a.k.a racist party) who’s part of the Swedish Government. SCARY and ok (now I’m gonna hate some..), I hate it. IS. Donald Trump…

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Who did you miss?
Friends and family…♥

Who was the best new person (people) you met?
My co-workers, other new friends here in Uppsala, the girls at treatment, the professionals there, and again; Helen Sjöholm.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015
Don’t waste your energy on some people who you’ll never get energy from (the same as last year..hehe) and to get healthy and free will take its time and that’s what I’m gonna let it take. Because, I’m gonna get healthy and free from this shit.

Helen Sjöholm

Earlier year summaries
2014
2013
2011

Happy Birthday, Liz!

September 24, 2015

Liz

Today, my friends, is not just a regular Thursday in September! It’s, according to me, the best person in the world’s, birthday! I thought, in the honor of her, to share some photos of her, us, and things that means a lot to her. Because, she’s my everything, today, and forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LIZ

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She’s a girl who truly has a huge love for coffee, so she’s done a blog project, called “Forty Days of Fika” where she visited 40 different cafes in Asheville, NC and blogged about it, started her own fika group in the States, wrote about fika in a local paper, and just loves hanging out at various cafes, together with friends – new and old, family, and/or me. She also has a passion for meditation, yoga, spiritual guidance, etc. Something I admire her for, and something that’s so far from what I do. But that’s also why I love her so much. She does things that’s making her grow as a person, feel good about herself, and is such an inspiring, and interesting person, I think.

Sunset by Liz

Summer

Liz also takes amazing pictures, and creates her own little projects, such taking pictures of skies/sunsets Another project of hers, is the music project, where she created monthly playlists started when she turned 40 last year. I wrote some about it here.
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Even though we’re pretty different, there are so many things we enjoy doing together – traveling, brewing beer, exploring Stockholm together, walking in the Pride Parade together, meeting new people, watching TV-series/movies together, and the list can continue for an endless infinity.

 

I love you so much and I hope you enjoy your birthday to the fullest ♥

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December 30, 2014

Let’s check out, through some questions and answers, what 2014 was like!

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What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?
The majority of the things I did for the first time, were school related. Figure drawings. And I used a drawing pad on a regular basis. Modeled digital in 3D, and animated movies (3D and 2D). 2014 was a year full of school challenges where I faced and found myself in situations I wasn’t too familiar with, but that taught me a lot. I also visited Disney World in Florida and spent my 30th birthday in New York with Liz, my brother, and my cousin. Saw the musical Les Miserables on Broadway! Was my sister’s bridesmaid and jumped into a jam session here in Asheville.

wedding

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t really make any. I will make some for 2015, but keep them for myself at the moment.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes. Several friends ♥.

Did anyone close to you die?
No.

What countries did you visit?
Sweden and the States – not really an exciting year of travels (to different countries)…Guess this past year was just a regular everyday life-kind-of-year…but you gotta have those too, I guess.

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What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?
Way more traveling to several different countries. I guess living in Europe will help a whole lot with that. We already have thoughts of going to France, Ireland, England, Germany, and the States (since we’ll be living in Sweden from January).

What days from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Disney World in the beginning of 2014, it was an amazing trip. Our trip to NYC in May, the beach week with Liz’s family – loved it! My sister’s wedding, and when we decided to move back to Sweden.

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beach

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
To learn so much at the University here in the States and to get such good grades.

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What was your biggest failure?
To not exercise. I have to get into that routine in order to get stronger and more fit.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No colds or such, but a lot of stomach aches :/

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
The trips we took (Florida, NYC, and Sweden). We scored to be in Sweden when the weather was fantastic! Warm, sunny, and just gorgeous.

sweden_summer

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine! First year in forever, I didn’t have to spend a lot of time in the hospital! Go me.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not gonna mention it here, but some sure made me upset. Not as much to make me depressed though.

Where did most of your money go?
Just regular life and probably the trips.

What are you really, really, really excited about?
To start working again! I’m also really stoked about being close to my friends and family in Sweden again.

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What song will always remind you of 2014?
» Sarah Jarosz’s version of Bob Dylan’s Simple Twist of Fate
» Håkan Hellström’s Valborg, Du är snart där, and Pistol
» Damien Rice’s My Favourite Faded Fantasy and I Don’t Want to Change You
» Rodriguez’s Sugar Man
» First Aid Kit’s Silver Lining, Emmylou, Stay Gold, and Cedar Lane
» Tomas Andersson Wij’s En gång till ska gatorna ropa
» Weeping Willows’s album The Time Has Come
» Sleeping At Last’s album Atlas: Year One
» Random songs by Nickel Creek and the Avett Brothers

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier. Ups and downs – like everybody, I guess, but in general, more happy.
b) bigger or smaller? Don’t know. Probably bigger, but trying to not care…
c) richer or poorer? Poorer. Spent so much money on education and trips. Hehe.

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What do you wish you’d done more of?
Talked more with friends in Sweden.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying and stressing about various things. Everything. Will. Be. Fine.

How did you be spend Christmas?
Together with my parents, who are visiting from Sweden, and Liz’s parents and brother here in Western North Carolina. Christmas Eve with some Swedish traditions, and Christmas Day with the American traditions. A lot of food, a lot of great conversations, and a lot of Christmas gifts.

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christmasday

What was your favorite month of 2014?
May, July, and December.

Did you fall in love in 2014?
I’m in love with Liz, my wife ♥.

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What was your favorite TV program?
Kelly & Michael (a morning TV-show here in the States)

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t do the hating.

What was the best book you read?
Didn’t read that much (except school stuff), but the ones I read were good, but sad.
» I kroppen min : resan mot livets slut och alltings början by Kristian Gidlund 
» I kroppen min: vägsjäl by Kristian Gidlund

What was the best serie(s) you watched?
The Walking Dead and The Fosters.

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What was your greatest musical discovery?
Most of the artists I mentioned in an earlier question above ↑.

What did you want and get?
Several Swedish/international friends and family members who came and visited us! So. Much. Fun.

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visitors

What did you want and not get?
Some Swedish/international friends who couldn’t make it this year to the States.

What was your favorite film of this year?
I really enjoyed Wild that recently came out in the movies here in the States.

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What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 30 this year and Liz and I flew up to New York City, stayed in a really great apartment in Alphabet City in Manhattan, met up with my brother and one of my cousins who had flown over to the States, from Sweden! Walked all over the city, drank drinks, watched the musical Les Miserables, and ate yummy food. It was pretty much perfect.

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What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To not focus on some negative stuff that I couldn’t really change anyway.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?
Jeans shorts or black shorts when it’s warm. Otherwise jeans and black pants, a tank or a t-shirt, jewelry, and toms. Pretty relaxed and oversized. Hats.

What kept you sane?
Liz and some really close friends.

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Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmmm. All the live bands we saw in 2014. Nickel Creek, First Aid Kit X2, The Avett Brothers, Motopony, and The Wilhelm Brothers. Fantastic musicians!

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What political issue stirred you the most?
SD (Swedish Democrats a.k.a racist party) who got to be part of the Swedish Government. SCARY and ok (now I’m gonna hate some..), I hate it.

Who did you miss?
So many friends and family…♥

Who was the best new person you met?
The new friends we have/have had here in Asheville ♥

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Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014
Don’t waste your energy on some people who you’ll never get energy from.

2 years ago.

May 9, 2014

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As I will never forget, April 12th, 2013 (which I wrote about here), I will also never forget May 9th, 2012.

Everything started with a doctor’s appointment to check on how I was doing since my Anorexia Nervosa had gotten worse. That doctor’s appointment turned into being admitted to the hospital under the law (which means I couldn’t decide to leave whenever, because I was too sick = I was committed). As I did last year, I spent my birthday at the hospital, had to cancel a trip to Paris, completely missed the spring, and the beginning of the summer. Every day was a really big war inside of me, filled with anxiety, depression, anorexic thoughts, and obsessive behaviors. I was a wreck. But with small steps, a lot of support from professionals, and my amazing wife, I got better. Not free from Anorexia Nervosa, but more stable. It was gonna take another 1.5 years for me to recover to the stage I am today. But being sick with an eating disorder for so many years, it takes a while to get better, and I’m still recovering as of today.

twoyears1My bed in my room. I asked if I could get a second pillow, and an amazing nurse brought me three to make it cozy and soft. My love bought me a really cozy blanket as well. I tried to make it as homey as possible…

twoyears2Tried to smile a bit, but it was all chaos inside of me…

twoyears3Once I found myself be able to focus a little bit longer, I folded several paper cranes, which I decorated my room with.

twoyears4I spent many hours in this spot (once I was allowed to go outside together with a nurse). After about 2 months I was able to go out by myself for some time in between meals, and this is where you could find me then.

For you who might read this and are going through a similar situation; Don’t give up, keep fighting. It’s worth it.

Me, nowadays – a way more healthy, and happy Lina!

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1 year.

April 12, 2014

oneyearago

I will always remember April 12th, 2013. It was the day I was admitted to the hospital for a second time because of my eating disorder, Anorexia Nervosa. The professionals wanted to prevent me getting even deeper into the Anorexia again, since my goal was to move to the States, and start studying in August the same year. Just a few months away. This was my chance to get professional help 24/7 again, and I took it.

I stayed at the hospital for about 1.5 months that time, and all together I’ve been to the hospital for almost 5 months the past two springs (spring 2012 and 2013). The first time, May, 2012, was the worst, but more about that in another post.

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Every day was a fight, and in between meals/resting times, I entertained myself by solving hundreds of sudokos, did puzzles consisting of thousands of pieces, and watched TV-series… I had so many Anorexic thoughts though, and was stuck in a really sick way of living which forced me to cancel a trip to China, celebrate another birthday at the hospital, and miss the spring and early summer arrival, because I was too focused on sick things instead of seeing and being aware of the surroundings and life in general.

I would not been able to have gone through this whole process without some special people in my life – Liz, my amazing wife, supportive J & S at the clinic who totally believed in me and my dreams, M – an amazing nurse/massage therapist, and S – another amazing nurse! I’m so deeply thankful for all what you’ve done to me, in order to help myself recover ♥

Today, I’m thinking of how my life was only one year ago. It has been (and still is sometimes) a fight, but my life today is soooo different than just a year ago. I’m living in the States and studying New Media – a dream of mine, and the most important, I’m happy, and healthy.

I know several friends and people around me who still suffer pretty bad from an eating disorder, and I want you to all know; If I did it, you can do it! It’s a really hard road to take, but it’s so worth it. Don’t give up, keep fighting!

Sending you strength and happy thoughts ♥

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December 31, 2013

I used some questions in my year summary of 2011, and thought it might be fun to use the same again. It was a few years ago, after all. For a short summary of 2013, it was a year full of sickness, preparations, paperwork, grieving, happiness, adventure, and business. It was a year that started with vacation in the United States. Then, it immediately got more difficult. I went back to Sweden, went through everyday treatment, lost my grandad, canceled an exiting trip to China, and was admitted to the hospital. At the same time it was tough, I also had some exciting stuff going on as well as I prepared for a big move, spent summer in the Swedish archipelago, and visited Stockholm. Life began again and was completely new as I made my move to the States, started studying at an American University (a dream come true!), celebrated Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and everyday in between, while at the same time studied at an intense level that I have never experienced before. But, it was amazing and it all feels so right. Now, I’m about to end the year, together with some friends, in Atlanta, Georgia. Gonna be so much fun! But, you know what I really want? I want to close out 2013 and begin focusing on the New Year… cause it’s gonna continue the fun and excitement!

dec-jan2012/2013 New Years celebration in the States with my love.

What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
Moved to another continent, USA to be precise, and started studying at an American University. Woo hoo!

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any. I don’t usually make any resolutions, but I do have some goals and dreams for next year – another blog post to come. Hehe.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Several friends…Emma, Kicki, Caroline, and Christina!!

Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my beloved grandad…

granddad

What countries did you visit?
USA & Germany.

feb-berlin

liz-lina-berlinBerlin in February. 

What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Muscles and be in better condition.

What days from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day I found out was accepted to UNCA! The day I went to the hospital, again. Days in the archipelago with family and friends, times in Stockholm, and the day I left Sweden and moved to the USA.

archipelago

sthlm

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Gettingt healthy. The move. The acceptance to the University and good grades in school.

unca-feb

What was your biggest failure?
The cancellation of our China trip.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes. Anorexia Nervosa.

sickNo life in those eyes…

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
Our first class plane tickets to the States when we moved! Trips, our car, my iMac, MacBook Pro, and my camera.

car

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine. My family, cat, and my love. Also some nurses and other treatment people!

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
A few who I’ll not mention here.

Where did most of your money go?
To the car, trips, technical stuff, and Christmas.

What are you really, really, really excited about?
An upcoming trip in about a week!!!

What song will always remind you of 2013?
Love on Top by Beyoncé

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
HAPPIER!

lina

b) Bigger or smaller?
Bigger, but I’m healthy now!

c) richer or poorer?
Richer.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Taken more pictures. Been in contact with more friends.

friends-marchReunion with the girls I studied with, in March. 

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Starving and worring too much about things.

How did you be spend Christmas?
With my American family, at our place, in the mountains. You can read about it here and here.

christmas

What was your favorite month(s) of 2013?
June, July, and December.

Did you fall in love in 2013?
Yes, with my wife even more.

liz_lina

What was your favorite TV program?
I never really watched TV.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No.

parkway

parkway2

What was the best book you read?
Haven’t finished the Book Thief yet but I truly like it!

What was the best series you watched?
I believe 2013 was the year of watching TV-series. Here we go: The Walking Dead, Girls, New Girl, Orange is the New Black, Revenge, True Blood, Breaking Bad, American Horror Story, Scandal, and The Killing.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
First Aid Kit.

What did you want and get?
Better health, new friends, our apartment, car, a good first semester in school, and to celebrate the American holidays!

holidays

What did you want and not get?
Muscles and snow for Christmas.

snowSnow in Sweden last winter.

What was your favorite film of this year?
12 Years a Slave and The Book Thief.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 29 and had permission from the hospital the night before, so I woke up at home, and then spent some time in the hospital during the day.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
To have been more healthy.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Converse, rolled up jeans and oversize t-shirts.

celebration

What kept you sane?
My love, cat, music, and my dream goals in life.

tattooMy latest tattoo, symbolizing my dreams and goals in life.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Beyoncé & Håkan Hellström.

beyonceBeyoncé concert with Liz and three of my cousins. 

What political issue stirred you the most?
How healthcare is so freaking expensive here in the States. The low salaries as well.

Who did you miss?
My Swedish family and friends.

siblingsMy siblings and I.

Who was the best new person you met?
My new friends here in the States.

friends1

nick_liz

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013
You can’t starve yourself, be underweight, and live life at the same time.

beer2014, bring it on!

Throwback Thursday

April 4, 2013

Let’s check back what I did, in the beginning of April, in 2012, 2011, 2010, and 2009.

2012
I had just been to Gothenburg with Liz where we visited our friend, drank Starbucks, and did some shopping in the cozy area named Haga. We rode the train back to Norrköping. I cheered the SoundHound app and wrote about different artists (for example: Irma, Caro Emerald, and Frida Amundsen) I’d found through the app. Felt pretty deep and wrote about that life is about finding the balance between black and white, and yet not living in the gray. I was getting pretty bad here and just a few weeks later I ended up in the hospital for some months; but before that, I celebrated Easter at my parents’ place together with some relatives.

hagastarbucks
shoes
flowers

2011
I had just start working within the social work branch and I remember this time as pretty intense since it was so much to learn and things to get into. But I loved it! As I wrote about yesterday, I started blogging at lier.se and I also enjoyed the sun shining into our apartment, but most of all, I was longing for the beach in North Carolina where we were going in the summer.

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beach

2010

It was a really intense spring when I was finishing school. Liz and I had gotten married just four months earlier (December 2009) and were now physically separated since I had to finish school, and Liz was finishing up her job in the States, before she moved to Sweden. She came to Sweden for about a week in the beginning of April, and I felt whole again. All I did was studying, finishing my final paper, and missing Liz.

love

books

2009
I was doing one semester of my education online so I could be where ever in the world a.k.a The States. Hehe. I was home alone during the days, studying, and in the afternoons/evenings, Liz and I went on adventures in the Asheville area. Love that city, and I’m so excited to be moving back there for many years! I was also counting down the days until our road trip to Florida and The Keys, which was one of the things on my bucket list.

lina-glasses

map

Five years back in time, filled with so many memories. Can’t wait to see what five years ahead will bring!

2011 is coming to an end

December 31, 2011

What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Got a full time job related to my education, which is also a job I looooove! Spent some days in NYC.

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any, and no.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Omg. It feels like everyone did or will do in the coming three months. Guess I’m in that age where you start building up your family (at least my generation).

Did anyone close to you die?
Thank godness, no.

What countries did you visit?
USA, Greece, and Ireland.

Asheville, NC, USA

Lindos, Rhodes, Greece

Right outside Dublin, Ireland

Dublin, Ireland

What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
A lot more creativity, more music (playing and singing), more fun, more time with my love when we’re off (we had pretty much every other Saturday the past months together due to different job schedules), and spend more time with friends.

What days from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The amazing days at the beach in North Carolina, USA and the days in NYC with my love.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
My job!!!

What was your biggest failure?
Stuck in some old habits.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
I probably had a cold for a total of 4 months during 2011. It sucked. Ok, my love says it was probably more than 4 months..oh, well. It still sucked.

What was the best thing(s) you bought?
My iPad (so easy to bring, so light, and pretty), my little iPod (so cute and handy), and my iPhone 4s (way faster than my old 3gs). Yes, I’m an Apple sucker. Also bought some fun TV games such as xbox 360 with kinect and a Wii.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My love’s!! She’s amazing.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
A few who I’ll not mention here.

Where did most of your money go?
The trips, my technical stuff, and Christmas.

What are you really, really, really excited about?
Our trip to the States in just a few weeks where we’re gonna see our family and friends who we haven’t seen since summer.

What song will always remind you of 2011?
Aaah, so many. Let’s see…

Home Edward Sharpe & Manetic Zeros
F**k You Cee Lo Green
Little Lou, Ugly Jack, Prophet John Norah Jones, Belle & Sebastian
Why Do You let Me Stay Here She & Him
Firework Kate Perry
Born This Way Lady Gaga
Bohemian Rhapsody Queen
She & Him..everything. Ha.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
Happier…I’m more relieved since job hunting was stressful in the beginning of last year. Therefore more calm in that way. Sad for some private stuff that has happend during the year.

b) Bigger or smaller?
Hmmm. Probably smaller.

c) richer or poorer?
Richer.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Been in contact with more friends.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Thinking..

How did you be spend Christmas?
Cozy craziness with a total of 9 adults and 7 children at my sister’s house. Christmas Day with my love and then my parents and my brother in the afternoon/evening.

What was your favorite month of 2011?
July.

Did you fall in love in 2011?

Yes, with Liz (my love, my soul, my other half, and my wife) even more.

What was your favorite TV program?
Berg flyttar in

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes and no. Hate is a strong word though..

What was the best book you read?
Stieg Larsson triology. “Eat Pray Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert.

What was the best serie you watched?
Ally McBeal, New Girl, and True Blood.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Adele

What did you want and get?
The trips I did, and my technical stuff.

What did you want and not get?
Better condition/health, I guess.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Oh, gosh..we’ve seen soooo many…but Convicted with Hillary Swank was good and then the Swedish movie Simon och Ekarna.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 27. I worked evening/night at a big dance for teenagers in town. Was celebrated in the morning by my love and then we went, together with my mom, for lunch before I started working.

 

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Hmm. To stop thinking of so much and just live more.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
I’ve felt pretty creative with matching clothes I already had. But thicker sweaters with scarves has been a favorite. Also to roll up my pants. Well, that sounds a bit stupid. Hehe. Sounds weird, but it looks good, I think.

What kept you sane?
My love and some other people.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Zooey Deschanel (New Girl, She & Him…)

What political issue stirred you the most?
The North Carolina marriage amendment proposal, and DOMA (Defense of Marriage Act) in the States…and that the conservative, nationalistic party was elected into parliament in Sweden. We are stuck in Sweden when it comes to make decisions as Obama is in the States. Sounds awesome and productive.

Who did you miss?
My love’s family and our friends in the States…and friends I don’t see very often in Sweden.

Who was the best new person you met?
My colleague.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011
Don’t let other people let you down..and take energy from you. You are your own person, having your own life (of course with my wife), and can make your own decisions. Sometimes you also just need to let other people take care of you too. Yeah!

 

Let’s see what 2012 will bring. I’m excited!