a new design is up. i like it, and i hope you like it too!
i know, i know..it’s crazy here with all the changes, and now back to what it looked like from the beginning. the reason is simple. i can’t decide exactly how i want it here. so be patient (although, you might not even care about the design, hehe). anyway. will see where this will end.
hope you have had a great weekend. i’ve been pretty busy with checking out a fall market, a girls’ night when my niece came over and stayed over the night saturday to sunday. we painted our nails, listened to music, watched “friends”, and ate popcorn. liz has worked today and i tagged along. it was a pretty long time at the church today since there was an important meeting after the service. later on i cleaned the apartment and will just rest now, i guess. a pretty intense week is coming up.
… as you can see i’m in the process of changing the blog design. of course i can’t finish it tonight since; 1. it’s time for dinner 2. my niece is coming over for a girls’ night (which is gonna be great). with that said, it will continue being a bit messy in here right now. hehe. anyway, hope you will have a great saturday evening. we’re gonna have tons of coziness here!
i realized the other day that i haven’t done a post about this latest design for this blog. i usually do a post and publish pics from the new design so i’ll have it in the archive. i did a new design back in july and then did just a few changes in august. and i believe it’s time to change here again. why? because i love to change designs. it’s getting fall-ish now, and i also miss being able to post bigger pictures. so..gonna work on a new design today and probably tomorrow. or, i’m just not gonna say when it will be posted or updated since i’m not sure when it will be set myself, you’ll see. hehe.
i have so many thoughts when it comes to writing and sharing things on the internet and i’m gonna do something i think it’s really scary right now. i’m gonna share some of my thoughts and possible future ideas for my blog, right here!
some people are really honest in how they are feeling and then share it all over the internet – for example twitter, facebook, blogs and other social media channels. i envy them for doing that and at the same time get really tired of always reading about it. it truly is both ways. i haven’t shared a lot of my private life and feelings on the internet at all the past years, and kept it to myself or shared it with the absolute closest one, my love, instead. i think it’s scary sharing my deeper thoughts with other people (which i’m actually sort of doing right now, gaaaah!!!).
so i’ve been thinking of why i’m scared sharing things here on my blog/other social medias…and have come up with some possible reasons:
– who cares about me and my feelings?
– will my readers start disliking me now?
– what will the readers think about me?
– what are the readers gonna do with the information?
– who exactly is reading it?
– how will it be next time we’re seeing each other (if we do)?
it’s a bit challenging writing on a blog. what to write? what pictures to post, show, and share with you all? my wish is for people to find it fun, good, and interesting reading my blog. i guess the reason of all the doubt about sharing things, is that i have no control of the ones who are reading this blog. i know i can fix a password for the blog and people can request the password and then i’ll have “the control” i perhaps need or want BUT i’m working hard on losing some control in my life right now – to let a lot of that go..gosh, this is so so SO HARD.
at the same time i feel kind of stuck and in one way not completely honest here on the blog, so do i really need a password in order to be able to share more of my life? will people really request a password or will they just skip checking in here then? i wish my blog could grow to be more of a give-and-take-blog. i write something, people leave comments, and we start having a dialouge with each other. but perhaps it’s too much to ask for? on the other hand, you readers might leave more comments if i start sharing more here too? am i right?
what are your thoughts about it all?
should i start writing more honest about things, and then share it with you all here in order to be able to write more and be more honest? should i create a password you can request for? will readers request it then or is it too much of work then? or should i continue like the way it is right now?
(i just have to tell you that even though i might start being more honest and share things on my blog, i still have a private life and things i’m still not gonna share since things are pretty hard right now but i’ll share more than i do today.)